The Cramped Road to Life

A lonely lamb
Trying to walk the sacred path
Confused on which way she's going
Slips up and takes the 'broad and spacious'

Appealing enough, she thought
But because she was in plain sight
Got taken advantage of by the wolves, the snakes,
No one to defend her

She wanders the road aimlessly
The appealing road leading to nothing
Infatuated with the scenery,
While the flowers slowly whither around her

What once looked bright now looks so grim
The broad road seems to get wider
More wolves lurking behind the shadows
No place to serve as her sanctuary

Suddenly there's a fork in the road
The narrow road she's heard talked about
She veers to the right
Finally her journey has a purpose

The narrow road may not look so pretty
It may have hills, may have rocks,
But look at her destination
A beautiful paradise

No wolves lurking in the shadows
Plenty of shady trees for shelter
Plenty of great food to eat
And even a guide to show her the way

She labors on
Focused, walking with purpose
No longer feeling so hopeless
The paradise is within her reach

"A man's own good breeding is the best security against other people's ill manners." -Lord Chesterfield

Slacking

Laying in the bed once again, trying to figure out why I can't muster up and kind of motivation to do anything. A full-time student with two jobs, you'd think there was something I could find to do. Ridiculous. Instead I'm watching "That 70's Show" mindlessly (an episode I've already seen) and eating tortilla chips :/ *sigh*

Regret (haiku)

Dark thoughts fill my mind
Regret consumes me like night
Past is my shadow

price for repentance (haiku)

Confessing my sins
Wanting your support, your love
Distance grows wider

Making changes

I've decided to do some re-evaluating. Things were getting a lil crazy for me so I thought some changes were in order. I've deleted my Twitter account, changed my cell phone number, and deleted a ton of "friends" on Facebook. It may seem a lil rash, but overall I think this is for the best. Although it will be harder now to get used to not having someone to talk to every minute of my life, in the long run I'll be happier spiritually and physically. I was talking to and being around people I didn't need to be. And the only way to stop associations like that is to cut them off. *sigh* So the feeling is bittersweet. But the people that truly love me have demonstrated that through their kind words and actions during the past few weeks. To those friends I say thank you and I love you. To the ones I've turned my back on, I say I'm sorry and maybe we'll see each other again in the future.

squirrel love

Today as I was driving home from work I saw two squirrels playfully bounding toward a nearby tree, chasing each other, until finally jumping on the tree and finding a spot where they could look at each other.

Maybe I was just being overly dramatic and naive (and maybe the squirrels were just getting ready to mate), but I just thought it was the most romantic thing. If everyone could show affection and love the way these two funny little squirrels did, we wouldn't have such a high rate for divorce in our country :) Just food for thought.

"A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous." -Ingrid Bergman

My sis just wrote this poem called "The Queen". Very clever, and even symbolic. Love it. Check it out. Her blog is lovelyethoughts.blogspot.com

Alone

Alone.

Scribbling words in a book,

Drowning inmy incoherent thoughts.

Alone.
The incessant ticking of the clock

Is the only thinkg to fill the emptiness.

Alone.

Still feeling the warmth of his touch

But no one here to console me.

Alone.

Twiddling thumbs and gnawing on fingernails.

Bleeding's not enough to ease the pain.

Alone.

I close my eyes to see him here beside me,

I call his name,

Reaching out to fit into his embrace.

...And suddenly, I'm not so alone.