Making changes

I've decided to do some re-evaluating. Things were getting a lil crazy for me so I thought some changes were in order. I've deleted my Twitter account, changed my cell phone number, and deleted a ton of "friends" on Facebook. It may seem a lil rash, but overall I think this is for the best. Although it will be harder now to get used to not having someone to talk to every minute of my life, in the long run I'll be happier spiritually and physically. I was talking to and being around people I didn't need to be. And the only way to stop associations like that is to cut them off. *sigh* So the feeling is bittersweet. But the people that truly love me have demonstrated that through their kind words and actions during the past few weeks. To those friends I say thank you and I love you. To the ones I've turned my back on, I say I'm sorry and maybe we'll see each other again in the future.

squirrel love

Today as I was driving home from work I saw two squirrels playfully bounding toward a nearby tree, chasing each other, until finally jumping on the tree and finding a spot where they could look at each other.

Maybe I was just being overly dramatic and naive (and maybe the squirrels were just getting ready to mate), but I just thought it was the most romantic thing. If everyone could show affection and love the way these two funny little squirrels did, we wouldn't have such a high rate for divorce in our country :) Just food for thought.

"A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous." -Ingrid Bergman

My sis just wrote this poem called "The Queen". Very clever, and even symbolic. Love it. Check it out. Her blog is lovelyethoughts.blogspot.com

Alone

Alone.

Scribbling words in a book,

Drowning inmy incoherent thoughts.

Alone.
The incessant ticking of the clock

Is the only thinkg to fill the emptiness.

Alone.

Still feeling the warmth of his touch

But no one here to console me.

Alone.

Twiddling thumbs and gnawing on fingernails.

Bleeding's not enough to ease the pain.

Alone.

I close my eyes to see him here beside me,

I call his name,

Reaching out to fit into his embrace.

...And suddenly, I'm not so alone.

Loneliness

Alone without you.
Suffering fills my platter.
Belly full of pain.

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Secrets through my veins.
Always conscious of past sins.
Heart pumping out guilt.